Archive | January, 2014

First Love Note

30 Jan

First Love Note

ON…for Owen. I cut off the rest of Ella’s last name along with some more hearts.


Fun Book

27 Jan

If you read Eleanor and Park, you should also read Attachments by Rainbow Rowell (same author).  If you didn’t read E&P, you should repent and do so.  Then follow above instructions.

Quick read.  Nice.  Just a nice book.  We all need that sometimes.

Here’s a part I liked.  Two characters are emailing/chatting back and forth to each other.

[Jennifer to Beth] It’s nice of you to say I’m your best friend.

[B to J] You are my best friend, dummy.

[J to B] Really? You’re my best friend.  But I always assumed that somebody else was your best friend, and I was totally okay with that.  You don’t have to say that I’m your best friend just to make me feel good.

[B to J] You’re so lame.

[J to B] That’s why I figured somebody else was your best friend.

Not deep, I know.  But such an accurate representation of thoughts I have had before.  And more poignant perhaps because I just learned that my childhood best friend, mother of six young children, has cancer.

My Future

26 Jan

SAMSUNGThese are the two people I most look like in all the world, Aunt Becky and Aunt Lulu.  I’m pretty hopeful looking at my next twenty years if I can hope to be as unwrinkled as them.  We went out to LA for my cousin’s wedding reception, on a whim, and I’m so glad we did.  Saw lots of family, relaxed, laughed.  It was good.  And clearly I didn’t get the memo about wearing a white shirt…or having decent hair.

Johnny Cash on Cello

17 Jan

I’m in love with this song these days.  Cole wants to start playing the cello next year so if anyone has one you want to give us, hook me up.

Medical Professionals

16 Jan

Owen’s pediatric neurologist quit.  Literally.  She didn’t quit us.  She quit everyone.  That seems weird to me…and annoying.  She’s going out on her own instead of being affiliated with the hospital.  That’s her decision, but we can’t see her then because it will be a huge pain to get imaging or blood tests done.  I wish she considered my feelings when making life decisions.

I saw a psychiatrist today.  First time ever.  I have been diagnosed with depression.  Who knew? 

I also saw my GP recently to get a refill on migraine medication…which I’ve been taking since I was 13.  She thinks I should have a CAT scan.  I nearly laughed in her face.  Talk about unnecessary, risky, expensive procedures. 

I have no idea why anyone becomes a doctor.  It seems exhausting to me.

Best Mail Ever

14 Jan
Just junk mail, but this is how I'd like everyone to address me from now on.

Just junk mail, but this is how I’d like everyone to address me from now on.

I Got No Title

13 Jan

Owen hasn’t had a seizure in five months.  He’s been off meds for two months.  His brain woke up and he turned into a much more energetic child, one obsessed with math.

Even if he doesn’t have another seizure for ten years, doctors keep reminding me that he can never be in the water alone.  As one said, even if he’s in the Olympics.

If you have a seizure in the water you don’t flail.  You sink.  And die.

O will be five later this month.  I might have to stop calling him ‘the baby.’

We did a four mile family walk on Saturday and I carried O for about five minutes.  He did all the rest.  Yesterday Todd and the boys climbed a mountain.  Same deal.

My sister doesn’t want us to take Owen to Thailand, both because she wants to snuggle him and because she thinks he will die.  I asked him what he thought.  He was horrified that I would think of such things.

In other Owen news, he has learned how to do his own inhaler since his preschool teachers aren’t allowed to help him.  It is cute and pitiful at the same time.  He also mishears all song lyrics, mostly because it makes Cole laugh.