Writing Life

11 Jul

It has been eleven months since Owen started having seizures.  Something in my brain fragmented and I have struggled with writing ever since then (I even wrote about it here).   I have stopped doing a lot of magazine writing, things that I don’t care about, since I am really trying to prioritize my life and intellect.

I’m working on several essay projects though and feeling good.  I like writing.  It is how my brain works and makes sense of things.  Quiet around here means I am getting a lot done on half finished things which makes me happy.

I’m working in particular on a piece for Real Simple which has an essay contest each year.  Contests are good because they push you a bit and force deadlines.  The prompt asks about a decision you regret and something immediately came to mind.  I won’t go into it here, but I have a lot of regret about a good friend/boyfriend/heartbreak.  I wish there was a way to say I’m sorry, to acknowledge that I was wrong and caused hurt.  But there isn’t–he’s not on Facebook and to seek out more than that would be creepy.

Anyway, I’m a jerk sometimes.  I feel bad about that.  I’m a good writer sometimes, not enough.  I feel ok about that.

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2 Responses to “Writing Life”

  1. Kristine July 12, 2012 at 5:30 am #

    You are blessed to have a tool at your disposal to work through feelings. I’m glad that you recognize/ utilize it! Good luck with the RS piece.

  2. spanishjenna July 12, 2012 at 5:46 am #

    The way I know I’m not pregnant–I have ideas of things I’d like to write about. The way I know I’m a mother–I don’t write any of them down because who has time to sit at the computer? This comment has taken me almost 20 minutes to write because I had to collect rocks, ride the big car down our hill, find something for the big child to eat, put the pacifier back in the little child’s mouth (100 + times) . . . .

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